Monday, August 25, 2014

Thoughts Everyone Has While Traveling

Habari!

So I made it to Zanzibar after over 28 hours of traveling, which was exhausting but totally worth it when I saw the sunset over the ocean that first night (see below).  More updates soon, but this is a quick overview of the experience, my first time traveling abroad by myself.  


The itinerary for this trip was flying from Boston to DC at 5:45am, then DC to Addis Ababa, Ethiopia, and then Addis to Zanzibar, where I got in at a little after 3pm the next day.  

1. The night before: I’M GOING ON AN ADVENTURE.  (insert GIF from the Hobbit here)
2. I CAN’T SLEEP I’M TOO EXCITED
3. But I actually need sleep though
4. Crap, it’s 11pm.  I need to wake up at 2am to catch my flight
5. *alarm goes off* Why is my phone ringing?
6. Ugh, right, I need to leave the country in a few hours
7. I’ll just snooze for 10 minutes, I’m going to need that beauty sleep 
8. AAAAHHHHH I SNOOZED IT FOR LIKE 45 MINUTES
9. Just put enough makeup on to not look like a zombie
10. Leggings are the best thing ever for flying
11. I really hope I didn't forget anything important
12. I’m at the airport at 3am, the check-in kiosk isn't even open yet
13. Now they’re open, no one looks friendly.  Probably mad about having to be here at 3am.
14. My bag is overweight.  
15. It can’t cost that much for an overweight bag
16. Oh wait, this is an international flight
17. AN EXTRA TWO POUNDS COSTS $200?????
18. Good thing I brought an extra duffel!
19. I need coffee
20. Why do I always have to pee right when they call for boarding?
21. I’m the only white person in my terminal
22. There’s some awesome African tribal music playing on the plane 
23. Talking to an Ethiopian college student on the plane, he told me about how the Ethiopian school system works.  You basically take an aptitude test at the end of your last year of high school and along with that select from ten professions and place them in order of preference.  Depending on your score, you will be placed at a university that educates in one of the professions, and the higher your score, the higher of preference of profession you will attend university for.  
24. I just watched the sun rise in Africa from the plane!
25. I’m actually feeling kind of uncomfortable wearing leggings on this plane because everyone else is in loose clothing – can’t wait to get my skirt on
26. I've been pronouncing Addis Ababa wrong for months (it’s AH-dis not ah-DEES for the record)
27. Two hour layover = awesome peoplewatching at Addis
28. With the security at Addis, it seems like almost anyone can get on whatever plane they want.  They didn't even check my passport.
29. Am I even on the right plane?
30. Phew, yes I am 
31. I’M FLYING OVER TANZANIA I’M ALMOST DONE TRAVELING
32. There’s no way my bags made it
33. The Tanzanian mountains are insanely gorgeous, especially from the sky
34. Getting off the plane, I can’t breathe, so humid!
35. The Zanzibar airport is literally the size of my house
36. THEY DIDN’T LOOSE MY LUGGAGE IT’S A MIRACLE
37. The exchange rate means I could bathe in shillings if I really wanted to 
38. They drive on the opposite side of the road 
39. My hotel is in sight, thank god
40. *sleeps for six hours*

My first few days of orientation have been amazing, I'll try to post about them soon!

Kim

Thursday, August 21, 2014

Happy Shark Week?

Hello,

Well, it's the end of what some people consider to be the best week of the summer: Shark Week by the Discovery Channel.  Since 1987, one week in August has been dedicated to shark specials covering a wide range of topics from shark attacks to documentaries to reasons why sharks should be saved.  However, I've become very frustrated with the Discovery Channel and Shark Week in the past few years.  A quick search of comments on Shark Week material, their Facebook page, etc. will turn up hundreds of negative comments about what the week of specials has become.  Personally, I've been watching Shark Week for 14 years, and I grew up on a Shark Week full of education about some amazing animals and why we should protect them, not be afraid of them.

The issues with Shark Week started with me last year.  The opening "documentary" showed some first-person shooter footage combined with statements from scientists and eyewitnesses and photographs supporting the existence of Carcharodon megalodon, an ancient ancestor of the Great White Shark.  The doctored photos showed a shark with a length greater than 100 feet, and showed that the ancient predator is still alive and seeking out the blood of humans and has been responsible for attacking ships.  Right away, I was skeptical of the validity of this documentary, and a quick Google search found that the scientists and shark experts were merely actors, and that the photos and videos shown were doctored.  The only indication that this was in fact a "mockumentary" was a quick disclaimer in writing at the end of the program.

Even though this mockumentary was admitted to be fake, it wasn't enough to convince well over half of the viewers of Shark Week that year that Megalodon wasn't still around.  Viewers were polled, and many believe that Megalodon still roams the deep waters, looking for victims.  THIS IS NOT TRUE.  Megalodon lived during the time of the dinosaurs, and reached a MAXIMUM size of maybe 50 feet - about three times the size of their cousin, the Great White.  This number is based on estimations comparing the fossilized teeth found of Megalodon to the teeth of the Great White Shark.  However, a shark of this size would have made an appearance by now if it still existed, even in the deep ocean (which it wouldn't since while it was alive, it was an open-ocean predator.  It's also hard for a large predator like Megalodon to find enough food deep down past the 200 feet of ocean where sunlight reaches).


I was disappointed by Shark Week last year, and when I learned the date for the beginning of Shark Week this year, I was once again excited by the prospect of a week of entirely new shark footage and that maybe Discovery Channel had learned from the backlash they received for last year.  Almost forgetting my disappointment in last year's special, I invited friends over, got dressed up, make shark-themed snacks, and settled to celebrate the beginning of Shark Week 2014.  Within 10 minutes, I wanted to turn off the television.  Once again, fake videos, eyewitnesses, and scientists were shown preaching the existence of a massive Great White named Colossus.  Again, there was only a small disclaimer at the beginning of the mockumentary that I didn't read.

Yes, Colossus is an urban legend with hundreds of reported sightings off the coast of South Africa, and there are many websites and organizations dedicated to finding this fish.  No, it does not take down ships and push people out to sea and drag down massive buoys.  After this special was finished, I made the tough decision that I was to be done watching Shark Week until Discovery Channel learns from their mistakes and makes the week about education, not about bloodthirsty monsters.

Shark Week has now become the 2010-era version of the 1975 summer blockbuster Jaws.  It terrified people and made them not want to go in the water for fear of a man-eater.  Discovery is doing the same thing - but trying to make it more credible than a mechanical shark.  Scientists are interviewed (real scientists), shark facts are presented, and the whole thing seems much more believable.  However, many of the scientists interviewed for Shark Week have expressed that they were tricked into saying what Discovery wanted them to say or led into answering a question that they didn't want to.  No well-respected scientist would ever say some of the things that these scientists have said.  Discovery has warped their words to make a point that they want for the purpose of entertainment.


I think I'm going to stop myself here but I could easily go on for a while about my feelings regarding what Discovery Channel has become, especially surrounding Shark Week.  I would, however, like to leave you with some facts about sharks that Discovery doesn't seem to care about because they're not shark attack statistics.  Honestly, you could learn more from the following list than you can from 14 years of Shark Week.  I want you to make your own decision, but know that I, as a self-proclaimed shark enthusiast, and sharks were the reason why I became interested in science, will no longer be watching Shark Week, and just think about the validity of what you watch and question everything!

Almost all sharks hunt solo, but there are a few species, like the scalloped hammerhead, that hunt in large groups (called schools).  They can swim together in numbers in the hundreds, but at night, some will break ranks and hunt by themselves.  Bottom line: some species of sharks can be surprisingly social, especially for fish, showing that they have a higher level of intelligence than expected.
Every time a shark attacks a human, it's plastered all over the news and about what you can do to protect yourself from these bloodthirsty predators.  But this only happens maybe 5 times per year, and usually, all those attacked survive.

No one mentions how many sharks are killed per year, because that is really the shocking number.  Humans kill over 100 million sharks EVERY YEAR.  And many of those killings are to feed the Asian shark fin soup market.  Shark fin soup is considered a delicacy and is often served at weddings and high-class events.  The fins don't have any flavour, they only add texture to the soup (which is stupid) and they aren't really safe to eat, since sharks have high mercury levels in their bodies.  Basically, tens of millions of sharks are killed every year for less than 1% of their bodies to add texture to only one dish, and that dish can kill you.

Ever ridden on an airplane?  Then you have sharks to thank!  The design of the modern airplane was based off the streamlined figure of fast-swimming open ocean sharks.  The thought process was that because sharks are so streamlined swimming in water, why can't we have something like that streamlined for air?  And the modern airplane was born!  I'm sitting in the airport in Washington DC right now waiting to board a 13 hour flight to Ethiopia and that's exactly what I'm thinking about right now!

Think all sharks are top-of-the-food-chain predators? Of the over 400 species of sharks, only a few even look like what we think of when we think of sharks. Another one of my favourite species of shark is the Cookiecutter Shark. This little guy is a total badass, they live in the deep ocean and come up to the surface at night to prey. They are less than a foot long, but attack (and win) against large open-ocean sharks, dolphins, whales, and more. How? The cookiecutter shark gets its name from its specially shaped jaws that form a perfect circle when fully open. Basically, they attach themselves to a large fish or mammal and twist their bodies to rip out a perfect circle of flesh - leaving scars like the ones pictured.
When you think of blood and sharks, you probably picture a gruesome shark attack. Shark blood is actually super cool because it doesn't clot like our blood does. This might not sound cool, but their blood is being looked into to develop new, natural blood thinners for people with heart disease. And their thin blood is obviously working well for them, being the ocean's top predator and having been around for so long! And this is a picture of a preserved shark's blood vessels, compare that to a human's; sharks have a lot of blood!
Thresher Sharks are one of my favourite species of shark because they have big eyes and a HUGE tail! Their upper tail fin can be the length of their body and it is used as a weapon. Thresher Sharks can whip their tails around their bodies and stun their prey, making it an easier catch. They're also known to launch themselves out of the water like dolphins!
You think that dolphins are the only sea animals that like to play? Actually, Porbeagle Sharks (these little guys in the picture) like to toss seaweed chunks around to each other, much like American football.
Did you ever hear about cartilage pills for treatment of cancer? Maybe your parents have? Those were all the rage a while back because there were no documented cases of a shark ever getting cancer. Science has now shown otherwise, but it was thought that sharks wouldn't get cancer because their skeletons are made of cartilage, the stuff that makes up our ears and nose, and not bone. Sharks were further hunted for their skeletons, that were then crushed up and put into pills as a treatment for cancer in humans. Not surprisingly, they didn't work. But you can actually still buy them as a dietary supplement - but those don't really do anything either.

So you've all probably seen pictures of fishermen with huge shark catches - did you ever realize that there aren't really many of these pictures that look old? That's because recreational shark fishing didn't become popular until the movie Jaws was released in 1975. The scene where fishermen catch a Tiger Shark inspired thousands to go out on the water to snag their own "man-eater". While the sport of catching sharks has become a great thrill ride for many fishermen, it's decimating the populations of the big sharks. Basically, everyone wants to look like a badass.

If you thought that the jaws of a shark have a lot of teeth, think again! Their skin is made up of what are called "denticles", which are tooth-shaped and run from nose to tail. So if you stroke a shark from nose to tail, their skin is super smooth, but if you stroke it the other way, you'll cut your hand open. Why have these? They're super good at reducing drag while swimming, and are being used as a template for suits for professional swimming and professional skiing. So yeah, sharks' bodies are literally COVERED IN TEETH.
Sharks have been around on this planet for at least 400 million years (since before the dinosaurs!) and since then, they have evolved very little considering. This makes them basically evolution's perfect ocean predator! We're still discovering sharks similar to the ones that lived hundreds of millions of years ago (but no megalodon).


^if these look familiar, then you remember my Facebook posts leading up until Shark Week 2014

Thanks for reading!

Kim

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Coffee, Buzz Buzz

Hello!

So I've been on a bit of food crunch blog posts lately, and I'm continuing that with one of the most popular beverages in the world: coffee!   I first had my taste of coffee while being an orientation leader for the University of Denver's freshman orientation week my sophomore year.  I would go to bed at around 2 am, and then have to be somewhere the next day at 6:30 am, so I was in desperate need of caffeine that week.  First tasting coffee, I started with lattes, and quickly progressed to drinking black coffee since I love the taste so much.  And that's important to me - I drink coffee because I really enjoy the taste, the caffeine is just an added benefit!

This summer, one of my roommates had a Keurig K-cup brewer, and I've been wanting to try some new coffee flavours for a while now.  So I went to Amazon and found a 20-pack of all different flavours and brands of coffees and had it immediately shipped to me.  Below, I break down the coffees, what I thought, and taste notes, along with a "coffee bean" rating on how much I liked it on a scale of 1 to 5 coffee beans.  Check them out, and find something new to try!

Brown Gold Brand:

Flavor: 100% Brazilian Extra Bold
Hot/Iced: Iced
Buy Again?: Maybe
Taste Notes: Definitely an extra bold coffee, almost black when brewed.  I definitely think it would have been better as a hot coffee.  Was a good dark blend, but nothing special with the taste.
Flavor: 100% Colombian Medium
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Yes
Taste Notes: Another coffee with nothing too special in terms of flavor, but has a really fresh and just-ground taste.  Actually pretty bold for a medium roast.

Caza Trail Brand:

Flavor: Donut Shop Brand
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Yup
Taste Notes: Good, more bitter coffee, very strong flavor.  It has a nice balance of being a bitter coffee but not super bitter to the point where you need to add more creamer than you have coffee.  
Flavor: Kona Blend
Hot/Iced: Iced
Buy Again?: No
Taste Notes: There's barely any flavor to this. 
Flavor: Coastal Blend
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: Yes
Taste Notes: Was pretty doubtful of this flavor since I wasn't a huge fan of the one above from the same brand, but I was pleasantly surprised by this one.  The flavor is really good and it mixed well with my French Vanilla creamer.  

Coffee People Brand:

Flavor: Black Tiger
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Maybe
Taste Notes: Actually not that strong of a coffee smell when brewed, but the coffee is VERY bitter - almost too bitter for me, and that's including creamer.  Coffee is very crisp, not much of an aftertaste, but just really bitter.  

Donut House Brand:

Flavor: Cinnamon Roll
Hot/Iced: Iced
Buy Again?: No
Taste Notes: The smell is fantastic, it smells like you have cinnamon rolls baking in your house.  But when tasting it, there's barely any coffee taste, it's just like a punch in the face from the cinnamon.  I've found that Donut Shop has very strong coffee flavors, but this was too much for me.  
Flavor: Original
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Yes
Taste Notes: Another one of my favorite coffees in this pack.  A really nice, clean, and smooth medium roast that was a bit sweeter, which I really liked.  I also would have really liked to try this coffee iced, so I guess I'll have to buy more!


Emeril's Gourmet Coffee Brand:

Flavor: Big Easy Bold 
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Maybe
Taste Notes: Basically, if you want bold coffee, this is it.  

Green Mountain Coffee Brand:

Flavor: Breakfast Blend
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Yes
Taste Notes: I'm biased to Green Mountain Coffee, I generally really like their coffee and I've had this one before this experiment, so I knew I was going to like it.  Nothing special coffee flavor, but I really liked waking up to this.  

Grove Square Blend:

Flavor: Hazelnut Cappuccino 
Hot/Iced: Hot
Buy Again?: Yes
Taste Notes: The smell was not so much coffee as it was the hazelnut.  Nice to change it up from bitter coffees with this sweeter one.  The hazelnut flavor was not as strong as you would have thought from the smell, but it's just enough.  I wish I had it iced though.  
Flavor: Pumpkin Spice Cappuccino
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: No 
Taste Notes: Good spicy flavor, but don't really get any of the coffee flavor.  Actually a pretty watery flavor to be honest.  The spices are the dominant flavor, and they're pretty overpowering.  
Flavor: French Vanilla Cappuccino 
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: No 
Taste Notes: Can't taste the coffee in this one either, and it's way too sweet.  You can only taste the vanilla flavor.  

Marley Coffee Brand:

Flavor: Medium 
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: Yup 
Taste Notes: Very strong aroma, I thought this one was going to be pretty bitter, but it wasn't, it was a really good medium roast.  Nice balance since it wasn't sweet but wasn't overpowering bitter.  

Flavor: Light 
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: Maybe
Taste Notes: The flavor is good but not as good as the medium roast.  I like stronger coffee flavors, and this wasn't my favorite, but still not too bad.  

Martinson Brand: 

Flavor: Dark Roast 
Hot/Iced: Iced 
Buy Again?: Sure 
Taste Notes: Very strong aroma, and a strong flavor to match.  Good for wanting coffee, but not wanting all the sweet crap that coffee shops put in their drinks.  
Flavor: Vanilla Velvet 
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: Yup!
Taste Notes: Smells like a coffee shop, and it tastes awesome!  Little bit sweeter than a regular coffee (obviously, it has vanilla in it), and I think it would be really good iced as well.  This was I think my favorite coffee in the mix.  

Flavor: Pumpkin Pie 
Hot/Iced: Hot 
Buy Again?: Maybe 
Taste Notes: I had higher expectations for this coffee since I liked the vanilla flavored one, but it wasn't too bad.  Maybe it was because I was drinking pumpkin coffee in August?  Might give it another try in the fall when the flavor is more in season.  But there was definitely a nice mix of coffee flavor and pumpkin and spices.  

Newman's Own Organic: 

Flavor: Newman's Special Blend 
Hot/Iced: Iced 
Buy Again?: Maybe 
Taste Notes: I really liked the flavor of it - but I definitely think it would have been better hot than iced.  Actually a pretty bold flavor for it not being titled "extra bold" or anything.  

Tim Horton's Brand:

Flavor: 100% Arabica 
Hot/Iced: Iced 
Buy Again?: No 
Taste Notes: Smells like cheap coffee.  Tastes like cheap diner coffee.  

Thanks for reading!
Kim

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

For the Love of Food

Hello!

So I'm getting down to the wire, in my house for the last week until I leave to head home before I go abroad, and this summer has definitely been one to remember.  This has been the first time that I have had to provide for myself for an extended period of time, and I've actually had a great experience.  And by "great experience", I don't mean having ice cream for dinner twice a week or ordering out every day, but actually being able to sustain myself.

I've always loved cooking, and this has been a big part of my experience living on my own this summer.  And since it is relatively well-known that I love to cook, I've been asked multiple times about how I keep it interesting and avoid having ice cream or takeout for every meal.  It's still news to me that some people don't enjoy cooking, but for me, it is my stress reliever after a long day at work or school.  Knowing that I can take my time, listen to music, and make something delicious is a great way to end the day.  Also, it makes the house smell really good, although it does significantly increase the temperature of the kitchen (old houses don't have great ventilation systems).

The two biggest concerns I hear from friends are that they either don't know what to cook or they don't know how to go grocery shopping.  So I'm going to address both questions with how I do it, and it works really well for me!

How to Grocery Shop (A Guide by Kim Nesbitt):

  • Go with a plan.  The best idea is to make a menu for the week of about four meals to cook (which doesn't sound like enough, but trust me, four meals is plenty of food) and after deciding on meals, make a grocery list of the ingredients you need.  
  • Understand your budget.  If you have a recipe that calls for an obscure, somewhat expensive ingredient, you can omit it!  Just because it's part of the recipe doesn't mean you have to buy it.  
  • Know your snacking habits.  The chips, salsa, candy, cookies, etc. all look appetizing, but you definitely do not have to buy all of them because you're finally shopping for yourself.  If you really think about it, that $2 box of cookies might sound like a bargain, but you can also buy a filet of tilapia for $2.50 and actually get a meal out of it instead of a few snacks.  Yes, you can let yourself have a snack at the grocery store, but try to keep it to just one per visit.  
  • Plan a route.  Generally, the healthy, actually-can-make-a-meal food will be around the perimeter of the grocery store, while the snacks and processed food will be in the center aisles.  What I do is I make a loop around the perimeter of the store and grab what I need in terms of veggies, fruits, meats, dairy, etc., and then if you feel the need, head down the aisles to grab your ice cream or sauce or whatever (and your cart is relatively full by this point, which can trick you into thinking that you don't need any more food).  

And since I've been asked about what I make, here's a list of some really easy-to-make college meals!

  • Quesadillas!  How easy is throwing together tortillas, cheese, and whatever meat you have in your fridge?  I've made these with chicken, pork, steak, anything!  You can even make them into little pizzas or make breakfast ones with frozen berries and cream cheese, so many possibilities!
  • Marinated Chicken.  You can marinate chicken with Italian salad dressing or Dr. Pepper, either is really good!  Just make sure you stab the chicken with a fork a few times on each side so the marinate can get into the meat.  And just fry it in a skillet on low heat (ALWAYS cook chicken on indirect heat, you can also cover the skillet so it basically becomes an oven) 
  • Zucchini & Squash Bake.  This is a super simple side dish that you can definitely make into a main meal.  Just cut up the veggies, throw them in a pan with cheese and a few other ingredients, and in a half hour, you have something delicious! 
  • Sausage & Pasta.  This is my go-to dish when I don't feel like cooking!  I usually buy Hillshire Farm's Polska Kielbasa and cook it with Sweet Baby Ray's BBQ Sauce.  
  • Greek Yogurt Chicken Salad.  I made this a few weeks ago and it was delicious!  I cooked and shredded up some Italian dressing marinated chicken, added celery, halved grapes, half an apple, and the juice of half a lemon.  It stores pretty well and once you make it, it's a great easy dish to grab for lunch.  
  • Parmesan-Crusted Tilapia.  I love fish, and living in a landlocked state, I've been pretty deprived.  The fish I can find and would actually want to eat is really expensive generally, but tilapia isn't too expensive and it's a nice light fish that even non-fish lovers can enjoy!  I added Italian bread crumbs to the mix to make it a bit more crisp.  
  • TACOS.  Who doesn't love tacos?  I've been buying extra lean ground turkey meat and just frying that up on a skillet, bought some hard taco shells, added some Mexican cheese and Tostitos-brand salsa to make some pretty good tacos for lunch if I don't say so myself.
  • Crock Pot Pork.  My mom makes this pork, from a Weight Watchers recipe, and it's one of my favorite recipes ever.  And all it is a pork tenderloin in the crock pot with a jar of chili sauce and a jar of cranberry sauce, cooked on low for 5 hours.  It's literally that easy.  I highly recommend investing in a crock pot, they're a wonderful thing.  
Okay, I think that's a good selection of meals that are really easy to make and taste delicious (I wouldn't spend the time to make any of these if they weren't going to be good).  My biggest advice?  Just experiment!  Once you can figure out the basics of cooking, you'll understand what does and doesn't go well together and you just can't be afraid to try something new!  Food is so good, and there's so much you can do with it, it's like being given a chemistry set as a child - there was so much to learn and explore.  

Well, I hope you've found something delicious you can make for dinner this week.  As always, thanks for reading!

Kim 

Friday, August 1, 2014

Working Woman

Hello!

First, I would like to start out with an announcement: I've been accepted to be a student blogger for the University of Denver Study Abroad Program, so I will be blogging regularly while I am studying abroad in Zanzibar.  I'm so excited to have been offered this position, and it will definitely force me to keep writing and think about my experiences abroad more and what they mean.

But that's not what this blog post is about.  I've been working two jobs this summer, one in DU Admissions as a tour guide and one doing research in a biology lab on campus.  This is the first time in my life where I've basically been an adult - working 30 hour weeks, cooking and cleaning for myself, and really being independent and I love it.  This occasionally means eating ice cream for a meal or two, but that's a perk of being an adult, right?  I've been thinking a lot about being an adult and working, and my recent experiences with one of my jobs is the inspiration for this post.


I am one of only two women working in the lab, and the only female undergraduate student working there.  I'm not saying this is a contributing factor, but recently, I've felt a bit under appreciated.  I've spent the past few weeks blaming it on other people, and I think now some of that is definitely on me.  While there have been times that some of my problems were definitely not able to be controlled by me, I'm the one who hasn't spoken up about what I want and what I'm unhappy about.  And not to stereotype, but I feel like this is a problem for a lot of working women, especially in a male-dominated environment.

I tend to think that since I am basically the lowest on the totem pole in lab when it comes to level of education, I don't have a right to speak up for what I think I deserve, and I think this has contributed to some of the stress I've been feeling recently.  What I've been doing recently is just saying "Yes" whenever I'm asked to stay late or come in early, when I really just want to come in when I'm supposed to.  This is something I've seen with a lot of women - just agreeing to whatever they're asked even if they don't want to do it.  There's nothing wrong with saying that you've been in work enough hours this week, so you're going to take some time for yourself (okay, maybe not ALL the time or in every position) but for example, I'm only supposed to work in lab for a maximum of 20 hours per week, and I racked up 15 hours by this Wednesday, so I didn't go in on Thursday (mostly because I had work all day at my other job, but that's beside the point).

Another thing I've noticed is the amount of times I say "sorry" in one day.  I have apologized for the strangest things, mostly to other people who should probably be apologizing to me.  And I think this is definitely a problem with a lot of women - why do we apologize so much?  Men do the same things and don't apologize.  I read an article recently about women apologizing too much, and it has really made me conscious about the number of times I say "sorry", and it's quite a lot.  There are times where it's needed - like the time I completely screwed up an experiment in lab and felt awful - and yes, I did apologize to the graduate student I work under, but instead of apologizing multiple times and continually bringing it up like I've done in the past, I apologized once and moved on, and you know what?  It felt awesome!  There was definitely no need to apologize about it more than once, even though I felt like I should and felt awful about messing up, but what was it going to accomplish?  Nothing except an annoying undergrad who won't stop saying "I'm sorry".

The statistics about women making less money than men also got me thinking about why that is when two people do the same amount of work.  Having been working since I was sixteen, I have never asked about a raise or about money or paychecks, and yes, that's normal for a teenager and young twentysomething, but I had a recent experience that actually worries me for my future moneymaking potential.  As part of me working in lab, I receive a stipend to cover my rent as well as getting paid for my hours on top of that.  I was told I would receive a certain amount before I started working this summer, then got a not-so-great email after my first day saying that the total amount I would get, including stipend for rent, was being cut in half.  Terrified, I approached the professor I work under and made it known that I was counting on that money for important things, like food, and while my complaint didn't end in a reverse of that cut (I also apologized at the end of this conversation), I think I got across that I wasn't happy and that I will stand up for what I believe to be right.  But I should not have been that nervous going in to my boss and talking about money I truly believe I deserve, and I hope I can become more comfortable with this in the future when it's a salary, not just hourly pay.

So the moral of the story is that women seem to be under this impression that we're lucky enough to have a good job, so let's just keep it at that.  That's totally wrong.  Yes, I'm extremely grateful for the fabulous work opportunities I've had, but that doesn't mean that I'm not allowed to ask for more if I believe I deserve it and can back up that claim with examples and facts.  This is something that I just realized and am now trying to implement it in my life because it's important to stand up for yourself!  One thing I really recommend is to try to keep track of the number of times you apologize in one day, and when you do (it's inevitable - I apologize for walking by people sometimes) think about whether or not an apology is warranted.  It's one word, but it can really impact the idea that some people have of you, especially in a work environment, but at home and in school too.

Thanks for reading!

Kim